My question: "What the hell am I doing?" Obviously, we're always looking for that one person, (insert mushy spend-the-rest-of-your-life-with talk). Duh. But will it work if you're looking for them when everyone's wasted with only one thing on their minds? No. Duh. There's lots of duh moments going through my mind lately... It never has, and most likely never will make sense that you'll find your "soulmate" when you're partying your nights away. Nobody's real, nobody means what they say, people rarely tell the truth, and everyone says what they think people want to hear. That's not even a person, in my mind. It's the person made up by society to fit in at parties. DUH.
My conclusion: when you're partying like a rockstar, you're in whatever universe you want it to be, nothing is real. Nobody claims to remember things anyway, even if they did, they wouldn't admit it. Alcohol is such a lame excuse for almost everything. Yep, I'm bashing something I take part in virtually every weekend of the past 2 years. I suppose we all come to a point where enough is enough. I just can't stand fake people who blame things on being hammered. I can't grasp why people have to escape to that every weekend, and even up to 2 nights in the week as well. Being you isn't good enough for anyone these days, which is probably why I'll resort to the drinking Twilight Zone like the rest of 'em.
Uhg...
My solution: quit messing around with the unnecessary stuff. Join another club? Do something other than what I've been doing, because it's obviously not working. Let's see if I can do it.
I read this quote today: "You must be the change you want to see in the world." I feel like that is so true. I like it.
Also, for Lent, I want to give up soda. That's just the start, because I would love to quit drinking sugary bad stuff for good. Let's see if I can do that as well.
Farewell-
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